Two down...

Life carries on at a frenzied pace. There is some that is hard and scary and much that is beautiful and good. But on nights like tonight, time slows down to a crawl and I really feel my mortality. Two years down.... and I try not to think about how many more there may be until I get to be with my baby again. Because tonight it feels like every second of those remaining years will pass by as achingly slow as they feel right now. I miss my baby. I wish her beautiful face and chubby limbs and two year old antics could be here right now. How perfectly she'd fit in with her brother and sisters! What would she look like? What silly, saucy things would she say that would have us shaking our heads and suppressing smiles? Tonight, I will light a candle to keep her close. Tomorrow I will look at her pictures and hold the clothes she wore and the blanket that still smells just a bit like her and sing a little birthday song and yearn, as always, for the day I can see her again.

Happy 2nd Birthday, Sweet Kate! I love you so much!